To The Pieces Of My Puzzle That Never Fit

We only seem like we fit perfectly into this world. 

We are actually like a picture in focus, but grainy. Nothing is perfectly clear, nothing seems right when you try to make any sense of it. The world may like it better than you do. But the truth is, nothing on the inside is fine. We don't have the man we love, we don't have our dream job, we cannot save up enough to travel abroad, we don't have time to go catch that movie, we don't have time to give ourselves a day off. 

So here's the deal. Screw it. Let it be. You don't have to fit. May be it's better off this way. It gives us something to look forward to, make goals and who knows, this is better than what we actually thought was perfect? 

Panic, cry, pity yourself, it's alright. These feelings will go.
May be all of these pieces will fall in place. May be the time has not come yet. 
May be get up from your dream, only to realise that this is better than the perfect life you had imagined. 

Things are more real. The struggle is sweet and the love is boundless. 
Feel ugly, feel pretty. Curse your frizzy hair on those cold nights. Be silly in front of that boy you like. Laugh loudly sometimes, because who cares about being poised all the time. May be snort while you laugh. Be a little impulsive. You will eventually only smile when you recall these cute imperfections you possess about yourself. That's what really makes this puzzle perfect.

You'd rather have a puzzle that doesn't fit and yet is beautiful, than have something that's perfect and there's nothing more to look forward to. 

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