Sprinkled Words

How does your life look? no, I don't mean to the rest of the world, I mean to your own eye. If the answer that went off in your head was boring, then get up, change it. Change the view and make it a little more interesting. GET UP! make the difference. Just do it for yourself so you can breath ok. Stop worrying about what someone will say. If you need a break between work and you know it will make a difference, do it. Its for you. Make a choice, but smile. The routine won't change unless you change it yourself. YOU make your world what it is. Find your supports, find that one person you can call yours. Learn to make time for yourself in all the chaos. learn to look up at the sky without fear and smile, because you can, not because you should. Embrace your scars, your scars make you who you are. Don't be afraid to to try for the second time. Do something that makes you feel on top of the world. Feel free, its your life, make the routine beautiful :) Make this abo

It's been a while since I wanted to write about this, finally got a chance. from my name to speinkledwords, the journey. It was about a good two or three years ago when I was still back in college, and there was a day when I was sitting in the corner or my room hugging my knees, and wondering what was happening with me. If my anxiety was a phase, if my fear was rational and my anger justified. I had no clue of what was happening with me. It was my alone time. There was obviously that voice in my head that I was talking to, trying to understand what I was feeling. It was only a few points I was going back and forth upon. Never really came to a conclusion of what I felt, I don't think that feeling had a name. There was this tiny war in my head. There were multiple voices and opinions and none of them matched the other. so I finally got up from my corner and went and sat at my table staring at a cupcake that I had picked up earlier that evening. That's when it struck me

Open them! Use those eyes well, you never know what you're going to see that makes you happy and will make your day. In that daily routine, go look for that one thing that you see differently, notice it, smile and let that smile keep you going. There's no use always focusing on the things you've already seen and known for a while now. It's time for change, good change. Let the black & white and grey also remain, but just make space for the new colour that plans to take some bit of your world. Keep the existing colours, they made you who you are, just don't let them with you down for no reason. Go find your new colour. I found it at home :)

So this didn't just come to me naturally, it occurred to me only on a very beautiful flight back home. We chased the sunset. It was gorgeous. The light that never goes out, thats the only thing that stuck to my head throughout this flight, just as i saw the light disappear and the darkness eat into the light. That's when I realised that there is always that light, and yes sometimes darkness eaters into it, but it's not always the worst thing. Do you know what is going to happen once the darkness creeps in? Dark is not always bad. Well in my case, the darkness was home. It's wonderful to love the vibrance of life. The Insane colours we see and the moods we feel, it's all ok. Colors are not the only way to life. Sometimes, its all about the black and white, and sometimes it's only about the grey, may be also enjoy the process of grey too? You never know what's in store for you, so don't always be afraid if that light starts to go out, may be in t

Sometimes it feels like we are standing on this thin rope, trying to cross from one end to another, probably even knowing that it is a remote possibility, but we go ahead and do it anyway. You know that any second you are going to fall and it's never going to be the same again. You fall. When you try to get back on your feet, you know there's pain, you can either ignore it and just try and see the brighter side to the world & be happy about this new adventure you are about to begin, or you can sit there, address the pain first and then decide to truly be happy about what's in front of you. Suppressing the pain will only make the wound deeper and deeper and it will truly never heal. What if you never address it and never give it a chance to heal? You'll still see the good and adventurous side to everything but with a ting of pain knowing that it could come up and bring you down even at your happiest moment. Along with the tears of joy, there will be some hidden

I'm no writer. I'm no philosopher, but this thought keeps playing in my head and I couldn't think of anything else to do with it, but to write about it. Our journey as a human being is wonderful and flamboyant, in it's own way. You may or may not see similarities with others in the process. It's wonderfully painful and beautiful. You may easily get lost in the process of trying to achieve that goal forgetting that you are the journey, you make the journey yourself. It could sometimes be easy and sometimes, not so easy. Things take you down, that voice in your head never seems to stop talking. There's a constant mumbling and you can always here it, but the question is how much do you listen to it. The journey is something that could change you and could easily make so many route things in your life disappear over a period of time. They never are truly gone for ever. It's like your subconscious mind. It just needs that nudge once in a while to wake up and

The window is in your heart. The view may remain the same for a really long time. You need to choose what you really want to do with the view. You can either choose to be irritated that what you really want isn't happening, or you can get up and change that view but retain your window. The process need not be smooth and pleasant. The more painful, the more you will appreciate it yourself. Get that inner self out. Use that voice in your head, talk to it and listen. You may just end up seeing a side to you, you never knew you had. Circumstances may change you a little, but they can never really change you entirely. After a point, the real you is bound to come out. When the real you is ready for its debut, the world will be ready for you too. Go do your thing! Be that person you've always wanted to be. Change the view from the window in your heart. Don't be too hard on yourself if you think the process isn't as fast as you want it to be, you might be damaging that

The process of being yourself, doing what you do, saying what you like, it sure sounds easy and natural, but it's not. Sometimes all of your world gets rattled up when you least expect it to, and it just shakes you up for a really long time. You become invisible. Nobody else notices this, but you. You identity becomes the invisible you. The sadness, the pain, the alone time becomes your happy place. Yes, beyond a point in time you really start to appreciate this space and disconnection from people, but inside you know that there's this bit thats waiting to go and meet some people and talk. In your head you're doing in, what stops you is the invisible exterior that's living the reality. It's scary, but it's a good scary. In this invisible world, you truly start to be who you want to be, because all this while you were so scared, and now that you're invisible, the process of being the real you is just easier. You come out to be that person you were in you

Our heart is like sea. We can either choose to be the creatures that struggles to swim, or we can be the fish that swims and enjoys his life, and reaches the shore and ends his life happily. We can get lost easily, everything may be tough. The important thing is not giving up. It's not shameful to ask to for help if you're stuck. Sail through it. Alone or not, just sail! The process of sailing may not be as pleasant as you assumed it to be. At the end you'll just appreciate it. The idea is to make it a happy memory. It must be your happy place. Do it for yourself. Its easy to love having people around you all the time and being a people's person, but also learn to appreciate the joy and the happiness of being alone. Honestly, for me, alone time is happy time.For you it could constitute coffee and good music, or a book etc. for me its just me and my camera on a beautiful journey alone. Making pictures is my happy place.  I think I am enjoying my process of sailin

Even when you're alone, you're not really alone. There's that voice in your head that you keep taking to and building stories up in your head. It just helps you escape from the world most of the times even there's chaos around you. It's like the voice that's reading this in your head right now. So I don't think we are ever really alone, physically, yes, but otherwise, well, not really. Every time you tell your self that you are alone, it just really means that you want to have that conversation with the voice in your head. Its the one voice you are comfortable talking anything to and wouldn't mind hearing anything from. It's a comfort zone that will never be extinct. It's a voice that makes you happy, it's a voice that helps you evaluate everything, its a voice that stops you from doing something that you might regret the next morning. It's that voice that pacifies you when you feel isolated and defeated she you don't reach that

 (if you listen to chasing cars by snow petrol and read this, it might just be nice) We all grow up hearing fairy tale stories, but are asked never to believe in them, because they don't happen in real life.  Does that mean we stop believing in magic? Or it's just that we need to find our magic and sparkle in our own ways... One never is completely satisfied with one's self. There's always something more that you want to get or achieve in order to be that happy that you can feel your heart pounding in your chest. Everyone has their own set of baggage that they come with. Some people find it hard to digest, and some don't really care, to be honest. You need to find that some one who doesn't really care. When you find that someone, you will realise that you are not just made out of those things that you probably think are bad or count as baggage, but you can also embrace that side of you that you never really discovered completely, it's that side of yo

It's just you, Everyone is around and everyone is there, but it's just you. You're the one who can help yourself, everyone's presence will make a difference, but 'you' are the one that counts. You come alone, you go alone, all that's there is you! Stories, good and bad, it makes you 'YOU'. When you have a broken heart, you help yourself get through with good food, or drinks, but it's you... A sense of peace and happiness that pumps within when you are with yourself. Ultimately all that noise and people get you closer to 'you' Because everyone knows, ultimately 'it's you'.. It's just you

Is this just a story, in my head, or is it reality? Is change inevitable? You were different when we met, and now you are different. Is this called growing in love, or just growing up together in love? The change is nice, and sometimes not too much. Makes me wonder if change is necessary at all. Sometimes I'm lost and need your help to find myself, need you to be my best friend and not lover. So why choose this duel role if just one is better? Is it because people find this hard to understand, our situation or is it because books have altered my perception on relationships.. All I know is I want this and need it, as much as you do I hope being lost together in happiness and still being ourselves, is at least what I want to call love. Love for me is very different from what I see around. Lost is good for me, lost is wonderful for me. I hope you like this 'lost' feeling too. Lost is love for me.